Choices

There are some points in life when we need to make some very important choices,

choices that will change our entire life,

choices that we'll never know how we it will turn out to be until we reach certain point in the future,

and at that point, no matter good or bad life moves on....(it might be an end for some)

but when we are at the point when we are forced to make the choice,

a choice that we should never regret as regret is useless since we dont have a time machine,

(arghhhh...i wish i hv one),

thus, this choice is so damn difficult to make.....but still we made it.

Then we just can pray that we've made the right choice n try our best to make it a 'right choice' as well.

In this world, nothing is free, you want something? you gonna earn it.

Earn it? how? by sacrificing sumthing in return for sumthing else of course,

but is the thing that u sacrificed worth the thing that u'll get ?

or its actually more precious? just that u dont realize it until u've lost it.

And the thing that u've got is not really the thing that u really want.

At that time, everything is too late......then it comes regrets,whinings,cryings and bla bla bla..

'i shud hv this, i shud hv that...'

Dilemma, dilemma,dillema.....

Hope that i've made the right choice....

p/s: this is the worst blog i every posted....dun even know what am i writing...(=_=)

三思而后行，不是什么时候都做得到

我们常常说做东西要三思，不过有时候真的很难，
特别是当我们很兴奋的时候。。。

那时候做的决定，
很有可能很快就会后悔。。。
那时候就已经来不及咯，
就必须要为了自己许过的承诺，
负责任！

不过要当一个负责任的人真的不容易。。要硬着头皮去负责

都怪那时候被兴奋冲昏了头。。。
原来不止爱情会让人盲目，

Adrenaline也会，
真可怕~~~~

Bye Bye Toe

This is Ah Mah's left foot after her big toe being amputated. She's recovering well since the surgery at 5pm just now, hope that there wont be any infection tonight, a bit worried about that though she looks fine now.

She said it doesnt hurt, and she look at the whole process of the doctor cutting of her toe...and after the doctor fihished his job, he asked my grandmother:

Doctor : Ah Mah, i already removed your toe, you want to keep it or not?
Ah Mah : You want me to keep it to cook soup ar????

The doctor ----> =.=|||

She is really cute sometimes. ^_^

I lost control!!!!!!

One of my tutorial classes had changed its time due to the students are always sleepy in class ( which was scheduled on mon and thursday 4pm).
Their father discussed with me about the new tutorial time during the monday class, and for this week i hv to teach them on Wed instead of thursday..

Maybe a lot of things happened recently until i totally forgotten about it, even though i've written it down on my diary.
Then around 4:20, the father called and reminded me about the tution, i was shocked until i jumped out of my chair and uttered
"SHIT"......and the father remained silence for 2 sec....
so embarassing....
i feel like wana bury myself within that few minutes...
as a TEACHER how can i SWEAR in front of my student's parent????????????
And i dun even allow my student to swear the same word in front of me..
What i bad image had i given to the parent.
What a bad example i am to my students.

I never lose control of my emotion in front of my customer,
Haiz...really pai seh tao~~~hope the father wont fire me bcos of that....=.=

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These few weeks really lots of things happened,
Within these 2 months i've been visiting hospital more than i visit shopping malls,
Today my uncle was discharged but my grams was admitted
Haiz...
Everything seems going on the wrong way,
but no matter what, life goes on.
I can see that mummy and auntie are very worried and scared about grams,
I bet she herself too are scared to lose her toe,
For me, maybe i'm too immune to have any feeling or maybe i already locked myself from feeling depressed over this kinda things.

I had enough of worrying and frighthening and sleepless night when i know that i'm goin to hv 2 uncles that will never recover from their sickness and that they might be my largest burden in future.

So I guess I've used up all my quotas when i was 18,19 or 20....
What i know now is saddess wont ease any pain nor make ur new tougher life easier
I've grown to be stronger day by day.

I'll just do what i need to do when i need to do it,
When they are sick i need to take good care of them,
without thinking about anything but just..
hope
hope that they can get well soon..

All this while the only thing that i can do is hope,
Maybe thats the reason why religions exist,
Cause hope is the only thing that keep us moving,
and always hoping for a better tomorrow,
i always tell myself, maybe i'll get a better life when i reach 30's or 40's..
just keep on hoping cause u'll never know how the future shapes itself

Ohhh...i made my life sounds more pathetic than it does... >.<
Huh...better stop here... ^_^

Hope that my ah ma can be as healthy as she used to be in no time

New sem and also last sem starts today!

Its 2a.m in the morning and i'm still infront of my pc as usual.
Since i just changed a new layout of my blog, i might as well take this chance to write a post.

I love my schedule for this semester, i just hv 6 hours of class a week overall, and no class past 1pm nor on friday sat n sun. wooohooo...!!!(>.0)

I wana make good use of my free time this sem.....to earn lots n lots of $cash$...*kaching kaching kaching*

Hope that i'm able to keep part of it so that i wont be a poor graduate..haha...

I'm going to do my best for this final sem of mine.
In both my studies and also my job as a part-time tutor.

I'm gaining more and more satisfaction as a private tutor.
Besides the better pay compared to other part-time that i can find, its the achievements of the students which makes me proud of myself.
Here i would like to share with you the sms i received after the PMR result was announced:

Auntie Dorris :" June's PMR 5A's, B for KH & BM. D for Chinese. THks 4guiding her in her Math. May God bless U as we rember d birth of d Son of God. Merry Christmas 2u+fmly."

Tze Han : "Halo teacher....Merry christmas....i get 8a.....^^....."

Note: I dint change a bit of the sms that i received.

My another PMR ex-student got 3A's for Math, Geo and Chinese, the rest got B.
These really keeps me going, and makes me wana put more effort on all of my students.
I really love all of them.

So, i wana enjoy this semester, my final semester in University of Science Malaysia by STUDYING hard, WORKING hard, PLAYING hard and of course LOVING all my family n friends even harder....

圆圆的冬至

明天是冬至， mummy讲要帮外婆煮汤圆，
不要让她老人家这么辛苦
那为什么不去买呢？
mummy又说去外面买很贵，

那好吧， 我就帮她戳汤圆，
当我在很用心的戳每一粒汤圆时
突然间，好多的肉松从天而降， 好像下雪一样
我辛辛苦苦戳好的汤圆就变成这样了.....(T.T).....











到底为什么既然肉松会从天而降呢？
原因是某一个贪吃鬼，一手拿着肉松另一手拿着盒子
那个贪吃鬼呢想要把盒子收进去桌子上面的cabinet里面
因为那个cabinet很高里面也有很多东西所以她一不小心
就把肉松给到了下来...(=.=)'''

那个贪吃鬼就是这位auntie --->


*有心虚的look

幸好，老天不负有心人，
那些占了肉松的汤圆一掉进去热水里就
肉松归肉松，汤圆归汤圆



不过仔细的看还是看的到一条条细细的肉松在汤里游来游去...



肉松汤圆你没吃过吧？

苦中一点甜

这两个月我的生活只有两个字能形容 -----〉狼狈
为什么呢？
还能有什么？？
除了没钱还是没钱咯
真悲哀

这两个月我真的差不多连吃饭的钱都没有
真可怜


但是这些都是自己拿来的
没有plan好好，
一心只想要拿这次的假期来好好的休息
毕竟是最后一个大学假期啊
咳。。。这样子嘛害死自己咯

自讨苦吃

然后

怨天尤人

真活该！

咳。。。我下次不敢了！ （T_T)

不过像人家说的， 上帝关了我的门后会帮我开个窗，不会让我闷死的

让这么可爱又乖巧的我就这样死掉祂的report会写到明年都写不完吧。。。哈哈。。（=_=)'''

所以我感谢上帝给了我很多机会

好让我可以好好的向长辈们行孝

最重要的是让我深深的体会到没钱的幸福还有没钱的享受。

虽然没钱吃饭，不过只要想吃东西，都会有人买或是煮给我吃

虽然laptop坏了，mummy也不要借钱给我买，我还有个非常疼爱我的外婆借钱给我

觉得自己真的很幸福。。。

虽然没什么朋友陪伴，

一个人坐在咖啡厅里，

吃吃东西， 喝喝咖啡，

听听经典的圣诞歌曲，看看周围来吃早餐的人，

手里还拿着the star，假装很认真的在看报纸上的每个字

感觉真的很舒服，也很享受

而这份享受不超过RM10哦 （^o^)