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这两个月我的生活只有两个字能形容 -----〉狼狈为什么呢？还能有什么？？除了没钱还是没钱咯真悲哀这两个月我真的差不多连吃饭的钱都没有真可怜但是这些都是自己拿来的没有plan好好，一心只想要拿这次的假期来好好的休息毕竟是最后一个大学假期啊咳。。。这样子嘛害死自己咯自讨苦吃然后怨天尤人真活该！咳。。。我下次不敢了！ （T_T)不过像人家说的， 上帝关了我的门后会帮我开个窗，不会让我闷死的让这么可爱又乖巧的我就这样死掉祂的report会写到明年都写不完吧。。。哈哈。。（=_=)'''所以我感谢上帝给了我很多机会好让我可以好好的向长辈们行孝最重要的是让我深深的体会到没钱的幸福还有没钱的享受。虽然没钱吃饭，不过只要想吃东西，都会有人买或是煮给我吃虽然laptop坏了，mummy也不要借钱给我买，我还有个非常疼爱我的外婆借钱给我觉得自己真的很幸福。。。虽然没什么朋友陪伴，一个人坐在咖啡厅里，吃吃东西， 喝喝咖啡，听听经典的圣诞歌曲，看看周围来吃早餐的人，手里还拿着the star，假装很认真的在看报纸上的每个字感觉真的很舒服，也很享受而这份享受不超过RM10哦 （^o^)
My life is full of imagination, especially when i'm alone.
I'll imagine lots of stuffs, realistic and unrealistic.
Sometimes even a normal conversation with my friends.
And that troubles me a lot, because of that 'habit', it makes my mind flies, especially in a boring class or when i'm studying.
Even when i'm driving or walking, i live in my own wonderland.
Thats why people complains that i wont notice them even they were just in front of me , for a few times.
Of course i'm tired of those imaginations which will just be imaginations, but i just cant get it out of my head.
I did some little research to find the reason of this phenomena:
Some says that its the nature of a girl.
Some says that Cancerian live in a life full of imagination.
So, maybe that explains it.
Then, i recently i started to imagine myself, got crazy because of all the imaginations.
Then i will really be crazy, having hallucinations and end up talking to myself or etc.
Hope that i can quit it by making myself busier.
Its so tiring. I wish my mind can go blank sometimes.
Am i normal?
I'm trying hard to get my life more organized.
To control my expenses.
To follow my schedule.
To work more.
To snooze less.
To give more heart in whatever i'm doing aka serious.
To become pretty. \(^o^)/
I just need some more time, to achieve the optimum level.
So please, give me some time and a chance to achieve it. Thank you.
I went to take a nap, at around 11 something.
Then when my alarm rang at around 12:30pm,( cause i got a tutorial at 1pm)
as usual i pressed d snooze button, kinda tired slept less than 5 hours last night.
Then my eye lids felt heavy, and i just let it down.
Out of sudden my body got numb, and the numbness was increasing gradually, mostly focus on the part which touches the bed (i usually sleep facing downwards),
Then my heart was beating very fast, i wanted to get up but i cant, i tried very hard to move my hands and fight to get myself up.
I managed to open my eyes, was scared of what happened, but still very very tired so i closed my eyes again and within spilt seconds ( less than 3)
it happened again, this time i can feel that it is more serious.
Then i heard the radio, turned on by itself ( FM sound, not very clear)
And also the sound of the door, my dad came home.
I wanted to yell at him, ask him to help me up, at first i wasnt able to split a word.
After some struggles i managed call him and asked him to lift me up.
Then i regain my consciousness, i realized that it was all just a dream.
Just because the scene is in the same room and i was sleeping in the same position it feels like real.
It happened to me before. But i really feel very bad when i was in the dream.
Is this how ppl die in their dream? I mean if i din struggle hard enough, will i be dead now??
Anyway, i'm late for class. Got to go, see ya.
爱情没有保障
爱情没有所谓的付出多少就会得回多少
两个人也许彼此了解, 但是确不懂对方想什么
该选择相信 自己爱的人, 自己 还是 理智?
....
爱情就象一场赌局
筹码是 自己的爱
奖金是 幸福
如果这一次赌输了,
赔上的是 心, 眼泪 还有 希望
下一场赌局不懂是何时
要看赔了多少而定
...
因为有时候赔上的是 自己一生的幸福 和 对爱情的盼望.
