just me!

i was craving for the ice blended mocha for 2 days....
but i dun dare to drink it yesterday cause i know i hv a test today and coffee is also my body biggest enemy....

when i drink coffee,
my heart beats very fast....feels like out of breath especially at night...
and i'll sure go to toilet within 15 mins.....sometimes even faster, before i can finish a cup...

but i just cant resist the ice-blended mocha...
the aroma...the smoothness of the ice mocha....together with the cream..argh..betul-betul ada 'umph'....
i'll crave for it...dunno why....but not often..the last time i drank is when i was in Malacca, more than 2 months already....so i guess it is fine....

just now after class...
i straight away go to queensbay...just to get a big cup of ice- blended mocha from Coffee Bean...
haha....crazy?
but i love to do this kinda things....
the ability of me to do things that i want ( especially impulse) makes me feels 'powerful'...
like i'm in control of my life....
i hate to follow rules...
this cannot, that cannot...
sumtimes i'll purposely break rules or to disagree with others,
(its a psychology thing)
all because i like the feeling of..i'm in control...haha
but of course..i wont break big rules...cause i dun take risk...
so i never get into 'big' trouble because of my 'habit'...

some will say this is a rebelious action, mostly teenagers will act like that...
to gain attention...
to me...
partially its like that....
haha... perharps most of us ( the only child in our family )...
will get all the attention at home, so when we go out, we tend to do things to attract attention from others...
( wern agrees with me on that)
i'll try to minimize that....

and like that i spent rm 15.35 for the big cup and rm 1 for parking...and also the fuel...


but the satisfaction...priceless....



*finished it when i reached home...drinking while driving....and it ended with a *burp...

and when i reached home...i rushed to the toilet with the speed of light...
and blasted the toilet...

hahahahahaha......i'm very satisfied...

dont know next time what kinda exreme ( impulse) things i'll do....hmmm...

p/s: hate it when my name is spelled wrongly on the cup....huh.. (>.<')