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外遇

刚刚载外婆去换dressing，
因为没有停车位，所以我就在车里等她。。。
一边听着电台一边等。。。
今天，电台来了一个性爱专家，
听她的声音好像也有五十多岁了吧
她说她是爱情专家，家庭幸福专家，
可是她也会有这方面的问题。。。

她在节目里， 除了宣传自己的书和seminars之外，
她也给了写信给她的听众一些建议，
教她们如何去面对生活上的问题，
大多数都是家庭闹剧。。。

其中有一位说她知道他老公有外遇，而且对象不止一个（算是偷吃的那种吧。。）
她不懂该如何是好。
那位专家就建议说她跟她老公好好的谈一谈，把问题给解决
勇敢的去面对问题就是挑战，逃避问题就会变成灾难。。。(T.T)
然后，她就给了好多好多的外遇例子。。
她说，外遇早发现（二十，三十，四十岁）好过迟发现。。
如果早发现， 还能解决。。
要分开还是要原谅
如果等到七老八十的时候再发现，那就麻烦了
有些死了，外面的小老婆才带着孩子来灵堂。。。

我要说的是， 她把外遇说到好像很多人都会遇到的一个问题
难道说它真的是每个男人都会犯的错吗？
可是我身边真的好像也有很多类似的case
例如万万都没想到会对老婆如此不中的‘梁志强’。。。

当他们去花天酒地的是后，他们都把老婆放在哪？
一直在背后支持着他们，帮他们打点家里的一切；他的父母，兄弟姐妹， 孩子，还有他。。
当他们的老婆在辛辛苦苦，咬紧牙关，日夜不休的在为他们过这些苦日子的时候，
都在想着自己的老公在外工作辛苦，家里的事就不要烦老公了
哪知道，为了心爱的老公，辛苦了这么久，付出了这么多，
换来的只有‘背叛’。。。
悲哀。

我在想，如果有一天我老公或男朋友搞外遇，
我会怎样。。。崩溃？？ 哈哈。。。。
我觉得我因该会接受这残酷的现实的吧。。。

男人啊。。。为什么你们会这么没良心呢？难道你们的爱就只有如此而已吗？
女人啊。。。为什么要这么自私去伤害别的女人呢？难道你不会觉得羞耻吗？

Choices

There are some points in life when we need to make some very important choices,

choices that will change our entire life,

choices that we'll never know how we it will turn out to be until we reach certain point in the future,

and at that point, no matter good or bad life moves on....(it might be an end for some)

but when we are at the point when we are forced to make the choice,

a choice that we should never regret as regret is useless since we dont have a time machine,

(arghhhh...i wish i hv one),

thus, this choice is so damn difficult to make.....but still we made it.

Then we just can pray that we've made the right choice n try our best to make it a 'right choice' as well.

In this world, nothing is free, you want something? you gonna earn it.

Earn it? how? by sacrificing sumthing in return for sumthing else of course,

but is the thing that u sacrificed worth the thing that u'll get ?

or its actually more precious? just that u dont realize it until u've lost it.

And the thing that u've got is not really the thing that u really want.

At that time, everything is too late......then it comes regrets,whinings,cryings and bla bla bla..

'i shud hv this, i shud hv that...'

Dilemma, dilemma,dillema.....

Hope that i've made the right choice....

p/s: this is the worst blog i every posted....dun even know what am i writing...(=_=)

三思而后行，不是什么时候都做得到

我们常常说做东西要三思，不过有时候真的很难，
特别是当我们很兴奋的时候。。。

那时候做的决定，
很有可能很快就会后悔。。。
那时候就已经来不及咯，
就必须要为了自己许过的承诺，
负责任！

不过要当一个负责任的人真的不容易。。要硬着头皮去负责

都怪那时候被兴奋冲昏了头。。。
原来不止爱情会让人盲目，

Adrenaline也会，
真可怕~~~~

Bye Bye Toe

This is Ah Mah's left foot after her big toe being amputated. She's recovering well since the surgery at 5pm just now, hope that there wont be any infection tonight, a bit worried about that though she looks fine now.

She said it doesnt hurt, and she look at the whole process of the doctor cutting of her toe...and after the doctor fihished his job, he asked my grandmother:

Doctor : Ah Mah, i already removed your toe, you want to keep it or not?
Ah Mah : You want me to keep it to cook soup ar????

The doctor ----> =.=|||

She is really cute sometimes. ^_^

I lost control!!!!!!

One of my tutorial classes had changed its time due to the students are always sleepy in class ( which was scheduled on mon and thursday 4pm).
Their father discussed with me about the new tutorial time during the monday class, and for this week i hv to teach them on Wed instead of thursday..

Maybe a lot of things happened recently until i totally forgotten about it, even though i've written it down on my diary.
Then around 4:20, the father called and reminded me about the tution, i was shocked until i jumped out of my chair and uttered
"SHIT"......and the father remained silence for 2 sec....
so embarassing....
i feel like wana bury myself within that few minutes...
as a TEACHER how can i SWEAR in front of my student's parent????????????
And i dun even allow my student to swear the same word in front of me..
What i bad image had i given to the parent.
What a bad example i am to my students.

I never lose control of my emotion in front of my customer,
Haiz...really pai seh tao~~~hope the father wont fire me bcos of that....=.=

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These few weeks really lots of things happened,
Within these 2 months i've been visiting hospital more than i visit shopping malls,
Today my uncle was discharged but my grams was admitted
Haiz...
Everything seems going on the wrong way,
but no matter what, life goes on.
I can see that mummy and auntie are very worried and scared about grams,
I bet she herself too are scared to lose her toe,
For me, maybe i'm too immune to have any feeling or maybe i already locked myself from feeling depressed over this kinda things.

I had enough of worrying and frighthening and sleepless night when i know that i'm goin to hv 2 uncles that will never recover from their sickness and that they might be my largest burden in future.

So I guess I've used up all my quotas when i was 18,19 or 20....
What i know now is saddess wont ease any pain nor make ur new tougher life easier
I've grown to be stronger day by day.

I'll just do what i need to do when i need to do it,
When they are sick i need to take good care of them,
without thinking about anything but just..
hope
hope that they can get well soon..

All this while the only thing that i can do is hope,
Maybe thats the reason why religions exist,
Cause hope is the only thing that keep us moving,
and always hoping for a better tomorrow,
i always tell myself, maybe i'll get a better life when i reach 30's or 40's..
just keep on hoping cause u'll never know how the future shapes itself

Ohhh...i made my life sounds more pathetic than it does... >.<
Huh...better stop here... ^_^

Hope that my ah ma can be as healthy as she used to be in no time

New sem and also last sem starts today!

Its 2a.m in the morning and i'm still infront of my pc as usual.
Since i just changed a new layout of my blog, i might as well take this chance to write a post.

I love my schedule for this semester, i just hv 6 hours of class a week overall, and no class past 1pm nor on friday sat n sun. wooohooo...!!!(>.0)

I wana make good use of my free time this sem.....to earn lots n lots of $cash$...*kaching kaching kaching*

Hope that i'm able to keep part of it so that i wont be a poor graduate..haha...

I'm going to do my best for this final sem of mine.
In both my studies and also my job as a part-time tutor.

I'm gaining more and more satisfaction as a private tutor.
Besides the better pay compared to other part-time that i can find, its the achievements of the students which makes me proud of myself.
Here i would like to share with you the sms i received after the PMR result was announced:

Auntie Dorris :" June's PMR 5A's, B for KH & BM. D for Chinese. THks 4guiding her in her Math. May God bless U as we rember d birth of d Son of God. Merry Christmas 2u+fmly."

Tze Han : "Halo teacher....Merry christmas....i get 8a.....^^....."

Note: I dint change a bit of the sms that i received.

My another PMR ex-student got 3A's for Math, Geo and Chinese, the rest got B.
These really keeps me going, and makes me wana put more effort on all of my students.
I really love all of them.

So, i wana enjoy this semester, my final semester in University of Science Malaysia by STUDYING hard, WORKING hard, PLAYING hard and of course LOVING all my family n friends even harder....