i'm not a judge

mix with different ppls recently
received lots of comments on others n also commented on others aka GOSSIP
also a few comments on myself..for being self-centred..
trying hard to minimize it...
but i'm not saint so do remind me if i'm acting like tat..

chatting with them let me knows lots of things happened in the other side of the class
which looked normal as usual...i dun really observe my surrounding

expl: my mom gv away my pet n asked me whether i notice anything wrong in the living room (my pet and his cage), i said no...the she told me the answer...tat time she already gv it away for about a week..heartless...and blind *wont repeat tat..urgh...

but things really happened whenever n wherever there are ppl...
so i did received a few hot news from the other side...
n started to be a little transmitter to a few of my gang members...
and of course i know sum are not 'transmitable'...

and eventually,
i put my own opinion in everycase
and judge ppl
what a sin tat i'm always commiting
but i really cant help it
especially when i'm in the right mood n with the right ppl
it just get everything out of me

it happend once when my words were twist-turned n used against me
n got me into real trouble
but still i did not learn to control myself

like others who transmitted the news to me...

maybe i shouldn't judge ppl on the way they do things...
cos i think that they r not doin it right.
who m i to judge?
but still i cant control myself from judging
like many others
as well as to stop anyone from judging me

so in conclusion,
i'll still try my best to control

pssst...*whispering....now cause i'm loaded with news i cant wait to share with pingping ....just 12 throw sumthin out b4 it explode or i'll hv to bare the risk....
n thank God tat pingping wont tell others...
her tank like will empty by itself 1 very geng....
cos will take it like trash?
sorry i'm judging again...

headache

do u ever hv headache?
wat makes ur head ache?
hmm...fever not counted...

when i force myself to understand a very complicated thing
or the things tat i had read orver n over again but still hv totally no idea about it

when i'm doin very very tough math question

i'll get headache

i din get headache for a very very long time

untill tonight

i need to rush my tutorial tomorrow (8am class)

Pkei ask me...why so 'gan cheong' ( nervous)
is not like we need to pass it up anyway..
i noe..
i told her cause i promised myself to finish every tutorial since last sem...
but the bigger part of it is LEE BOON PIN finished the whole tutorial when we met at class this afternoon (yesterday afternoon to be exactly now is friday d)
n damn tat tutorial is so killing me
it took about 2 whole pages of A4 paper to finish 1 question n i divide each page into 2 n the question is a sub question so if i do finish the tutorial its goin to be about 10 full papers...


very hard to admit the kiasuism in me...
but this time
hv to admit...hahaha....

summore got 253 , 122 n 252 tutorial 2 to rush this weekend...
math quiz on saturday
gv tuition 2moro n sunday night

T________T

i guess i need a power shot

~~~what a wonderful wor~~ld~~~ by neil armstrong.....

*dropped flat
*and then woke up n continue doing my tutorial

busy busy busy

these few weeks had been the busiest weeks i ever had after i enter uni..
beginning from early december...

all the outings, activities and everything...
since school started i dont really hv time to study until now,
i feel very very guilty bout it all the while,
cause i really want a dean list this semester,
so i hv to work harder, very very hard.
n my performance so far, very bad.

told myself hv to start to plan,
cannot like tat d,
n starting to hv a headache of how to plan for next sem n next next sem.

want to get dean list?
then hv to add some extra core courses
risk: final year project if take a lot of time will make my result drop and worsen the condition

dun 12 get dean list?
just take the minimum papers and audit courses and focus on final year project

but i want dean list...
argh...why do they hv to make my life difficult?
why?why?why?

i'm in control

i'd put it down
i'd deleted everything we shared

its now a new me n him
those stories are not us
those are just stories of others

maybe i still dun hv new stories to write
so i used to read the old stories
but not now
cause i'd decided to write a new story
with new characters
which i'll be in control of the contents
very hard, almost impossible
but i'm trying hard too

hope tat i'll end every chapers, happy.

1st day of 2nd sem second year

wah....wah....wah...
so fast
second year
second sem already

just so so fast...
still remember the 1st day when i stepped into USM as an undergraduate

and now..

not used to it a little..

some of them will ask for cseong, tfung n wping
wping also will ask for the direction to her class from me
its quite weird
since we are so close together now
and studied together in most of the classes that we attended before

now only left
2 or 3 classes which we will attend together

but life goes on

today...
hmm..
went early to school then only found out that there is nothing else to do
then went to LSP 402, my english class, had a hard time to search for the class
and quite disappointed with the lecturer
don't know whether it is good or bad

then after busying with all the stuffs
we went to qbay
yong jc skuo n pkei
we went to eat at Kim Gary
then we were late for the movie
Transporter 3
very very good actions

but
after the movie only we realize that
yong lost his hp
haiz..
makes me feel a bit sad
cause i'd gone through it too
and got to know that he had very precious videos and photos in it

talked to him lots of things
just for him to feel better
cause i know
when we lost something precious
we will start to blame ourself
for being careless
and start to think
'if i check my pocket...
'if i stay at home...
bla bla bla...

we know that we shouldn't do that
cause it wont bring any good
we are old enough to know all the theories
but we just cant avoid doing it

tried my best to tell him
hope that he can get over it

and hope that the one who took the phone will return it to him and also wont misuse the contents in the phone.

not a good start this sem.

lost and found

found a new job
as a part-time teacher in Vital Years - English Literacy Centre for children age 2-10

i love the job
i love the children even more

though the pay is just a little
but spending my time with those little angels are so fun
and i miss them so much when i go home
thinking of their faces, their voice...haha

suddenly think that..
if i hadn't lose the job at queensbay...
i might wont get this job...

this morning my car battery was down...
i dunno why i switch on the front light caused the last time i drive my car was yesterday when i went to work...8am and came back at 12pm...
the sun was so bright..
i din even notice that i left the front light on..

until this morning when i want to go to work then only i realize it...
for 1 second i was thinking not going to work...
but suddenly the faces of the children appeared on my mind...one by one...

then i told myself, no matter what i hv to go...
so i walked to my grams house and drove my aunts car there...

and now daddy and his friends are helping me to charge my car battery...
haha...so pai seh...
this is already the 3rd time they help me to do that...

and the 5th time this happened to me...
pathetic

economy crisis

Scarce is Money

Surplus is Time

As the shares go down crime rate goes up

Christmas , New Year, Chinese New Year

Sales, Sales, Sales

But still i cant afford

Those that i can afford

i don't like

haiz....

just remember

dun get yourself robbed

and dun rob yourself.